| teh blogger |
[Oct. 9th, 2006|07:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired as hell. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | VAST.all I found was you | ] |
teh blogger
yeah yeah, I know. It's ugly as hell right now.
But no worries. That's just the default.
As soon as I finish writing this paper I'll rewrite some script.
And it'll be super pretty. I promise. |
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[Oct. 8th, 2006|04:52 pm] |
A lot of things effect the way I write.
The style, the setup, the whole shenanigan.
I was reading my old blogs.
My blogger, my livejournal...
It's rather interesting.
I'm always surprised by an entry or two. Sometimes more. It's like, "no way! I wrote that? That's actually semi-interesting. And I'M the one who wrote it. Heh. Imagine that."
I'm a bit lame.
Honestly though.
I kind of don't like the setup of this blog.
I think it makes me write dumb.
Well, not just dumb. It makes me not wanna write.
I hate this blog. I kind of wanna go back to blogger.
The default one for my first blogger is kinda ugly since I got rid of the layout, but if the colors were different, I think I'd like it. It's plain but works wonderfully. My second blogger site, ehhh... the layout is very cute. Very pink. But I'm not really interesting in flashy cute pinkness. I want something plain. At least with blogger I can ACTUALLY modify the code or type something from scratch or even find someone else's and change EVERYTHING about it except the main setup of things. Bahhh. Idk. We'll see. I kind of wanna go home and transfer all my old blog codes to my laptop in case I do decide to leave this elljay. So soon. So soon. Sad isnt it. But Yeah. I wouldn't wan my old entries to be available. So we'll see.
I also noticed, I hate writing in one big paragraph.
Well, it's easy to write it that way.
But it's annoying as hell to read it.
Whenever I got to a giant block of words I skipped it.
I wonder if that's what everyone else does. Heh. |
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| something to talk about~ |
[Oct. 8th, 2006|01:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy and in love with marbar | ] |
| [ | music |
| | badly drawn boy.above you, below me | ] |
Didn't really feel like going to sleep last night so I didn't go to bed until about five this morning and then I woke up at 9:15 to watch a korean comedy show that Julie said was on at 9:30 but didn't actually come on til 10.
But yeahhhh. I keep sleeping retarded. The night before I stayed up til noon and then slept til 3:30. I remade Julie's ears and I made her a tail. I'm hoping she didn't notice that I redid her ears >.< I finished my ears! But they look bad on my head. They're cute as hell when they're just sitting there. Heh. Anywayy. Last night I downloaded a SHITLOAD of songs. Cus I went from having like 462 to like 625. Which is SUPER nice. I got a random craving for Badly Drawn Boy, so I downloaded a bunch of stuff. I read through my old livejournal. Like wow. There's a lot of stuff I forgot about. I downloaded Badly Drawn Boy, Belle and Sebastian, Artic Monkeys, two Strokes albums, three more VAST albums (cus I already had visual audio sensory theater), annnnd random songs. PLUSSS, I was up when Zatch got back from work and he promised to send me more music. Gosh. It's almost like the good old days when music was my life. I keep trying to download the Pirates soundtrack cus when me, Julie, and her older sister Cindy went out to dinner it was playing and we were talking about how good it is. And now me and Julie want it so we can listen to it as we play neopets. Cus if we play fun exciting music it makes Destruct-O-Match seem that much more extreme. *giggles* We're losers.
ANNND. I rewatched a korean movie "He was Cool." Gosh... that guy is so badass. *giggles* He's all gangsta hot. And then he's all sweet and sensitive. I loved seeing him fight. Then I watched "A Romance of their Own." Which was kinda weird cus the guy's in love with his sister. But I LOVED it sooooooooooooo much. I'm in love with him. In the movie he was so fuckin awesome. Like seriously... omggg. The end made me wanna cry. But holy shit. When he was kickin ass I was just like... *melts* Good stuff. Now I wanna download the movie (cus I watched it on YouTube), buuut like nobody has it.
I love Marbario. I miss him. Too bad he has tons of homework and I hafta write a paper. Ick. Papers. |
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| mmm... ok then. |
[Oct. 7th, 2006|08:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | MSI.two hookers | ] |
I need Zatch. I need to talk to him. Goddd... fuckin, idk. I wanna yell at Ryan. I wanna yell at him and tell him I hate him. More than anything I wish there was a button that could explode my brain so I could just not remember he exists. *giggles* Wow. I just imagined my brain exploding and it looked an awful lot like that chick in the Texas Chainsaw Massacre when she blew her head off. Except she had a massive hole in her head. I guess that part's a bit important. Fuck, I'm feeling morbid. Haha. I love how its fuckin four in the morning and I'm sitting here blasting MSI into my headphones and feeling not so good. Gosh. I was totally gonna do the emo thing where I sit here in the dark and listen to shitty music. Buuut, I'm scared of the dark and when I'm upset I like to listen to loud loud music. And it's hard to be emo with MSI blasting in your ears. I don't think I was as scared of the dark before cus I didn't care about dying. And if it's ok to die, what's the point of being scared that someone's gonna pop out and stab you? *giggles* Gosh I was stoopit. But yeah... idk. I kinda like the idea of living and not being stabbed by random people popping out of my bathroom in the dark.
FUCK YOU ZATCH! SDLKFJSLDKFJSLKDFJLSKDFJ. He said something REALLY fuckin nice today. Cus like, I was gone and he left me a message saying Random called him and I got excited and sent him like 3409583409583 IMs even though his away message said he was sleeping... and I guess I woke him up and he told me he turns his speakers up in case I need him. Well, he told me this AFTER he bitched at me for waking him up and tried to go back to sleep. But then he came back and said sorry for yelling and told me about that ^.^ I feel better already. I like thinking of nice things. Whenever I talk to Mar about stuff with Ryan it makes me feel guilty as hell... and yeahh... I guess I kinda went like *plllbbt* Yeahh... idk. I kept him up til forever and then we ended our conversation all shitty like. And it SUCKS. Cus now I cant even email him cus my brain is like, ummmm, no. Not happening. Maybe I'll do it in a couple of hours. I was hoping he'd call back so we could be like lalala feeling better. But yeah... heh. I'm a bad girlfriend. SEE! Now I'm like sad and shit again. Sooooooo yeah. Fuck that. Fuckkk. Nothing matters. Remember Jen? You never really care about anything. SLDKFJSLKDFJSLDKFJSLDKFJSLDKFJLSDKFJ. I just feel like swearing about nothing cus I'm kinda angry with myself. Kinda angry, kinda like really angry. Maybe I'll play some neopets, calm down, and email Marbario. Maybe... Orrrrr. I can go into sad emo Jen mode. Cus that's always fun. Heh. We'll see.
FUCKER!!!!! I was playing neopets to feel better and then I got a decent score and those asswipes decided not to successfully send my score. SDJKFHSKDFLHSKFJ. FUcking. IDK. IDK. IDC. Fckers.
Oh. Nevermind. It worked. ^.^ |
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[Oct. 5th, 2006|03:19 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  loved | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing | ] |
All I can say is ^.^
Even though I'm fucking tired as hell.
You'd think that I'd have more to say considering I talk to him like 5000 hours a day. But all i can say is ^.^ He's fucking amazing. |
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| life is full of so many wonderful things - |
[Oct. 2nd, 2006|02:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the tellyvision | ] |
And Marbario is one of the most important ^.^
I like don't even know what to say. I don't know why it's so hard to write about him. I talk about him all the time but when I sit down and think, "Ok. I'm gonna write about Mar." It just doesn't happen.
I'm really worried about being with him. I'm worried that I won't be enough to make him happy. I'm worried about hurting him... lately I've been worried that I'm still broken. That maybe I'm still like I used to be. Hopefully that's not true. I don't know.
I did everything Ryan wanted. Well, to a certain extent. He always wanted me to stop talking to his friends but I could never do it for him. I always tried, I would cut myself out of their lives. But then whenever me and Ryan fought or split, I'd go and talk to them again. I told Zatch... I don't want Mar to be my everything. I've always said the right things. So many times I convinced Ryan everything would work out. It was just talk. Words don't mean anything. I told Ryan again and again that he was my everything. I don't want one person to be my everything. Because that's where things go wrong. I don't wanna sit around and think about him all the time. I want a healthy relationship with Mar. Because I want it to last. Because I know it's going to last. And thats why I try so hard to make it work. I know I have issues and I don't want them getting in the way from being with Mar.
It still surprises me when I realize just how much he means to me. When he got upset about something, I didn't know it'd effect me so much. I didn't know I'd worry so much. And today I was walking home from school and it just hit me... I just needed to be with him so badly. But I couldnt and it sucked. I don't know. The thing is, I could totally get sad about it. But I dont. Because when I talk to him, everything is just so fucking perfect. And I know that I'm gonna be able to be with him for real someday and that everything is gonna be wonderful.
He makes me so fucking happy.
And more than anything I wanna make him happy. |
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| rahr? |
[Oct. 2nd, 2006|12:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  giggly | ] |
| [ | music |
| | basshunter.the song with the v in it and it's really long | ] |
Did you know I love Marbario?
I try not to write more than one blog entry a day cus when I think too much it makes my brain hurt and it makes me sad. Blogging usually makes me sad. But yesterday I decided I wanna blog about Marbar Bobbie Head. But I like didn't know how to start it so I didn't. And now I have no time cus I hafta go to class. So yeah.
He's the bestest ^.^ |
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| i will follow you into the dark ~ |
[Oct. 1st, 2006|07:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | diggnation | ] |
Zackie's erm... scratch that. Julia's favorite Deathcab song *points at blog entry title*
I think I'm going crazy. Heh. Oh Jen. You're such a drama queen *grins* Zatch says no one could ever get bored with me cus it's always one giant mess after another.
Maybe it's cus I'm by myself? Maybe it's cus I need people? Idk. Or maybe I'm just always going to be retarded. Heh. I hope not.
Whatever. I don't care. |
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| loneliness is having no one to miss~ |
[Oct. 1st, 2006|10:49 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | basshunter.boten anna | ] |
I decided I'd clean out my email instead of taking a shower... and by clean out I just mean move things around and toss only useless things like account confirmations, happy birthdays from pepsi and etc, emails from sisters, old emails i sent myself, and a few other things. I hold onto all of my emails. I like need to. But at the same time I'm starting to realize I need to let go of the past. Let go of things from before. Especially Ryan. Half the emails he sent me make me feel like crap, the other half make me want to cry because of how things used to be. So I guess overall they make me feel like crap. Heh.
I have old livejournal comment notifications from April of 2004. I have private message notifications from Harvest Moon Meadow and those also go back to 2004. I would have even older emails except half a year ago Ryan decided to log onto my email and have a little fun. He didn't think I "deserved" to keep the emails he'd sent me over the years.
Um. wow. Just spent the past however long rereading old Harvest Moon PMs. Most of them were nice. Irbe was nice, Child of God was nice, I was really good friends with June in December... but wow. Holy shit. How the fuck did I ever think Ryan was a nice guy? Seriously though, someone needed to take a shotgun to my head or beaten the shit outta me until I saw how much of an ass he was. LMFAO. And I actually thought he CARED. All he ever cared about was fucking me. He even admitted it. Wow.
And he can't even spell.
I don't know why that bothers me so much.
It's funny how again and again I forgave him for everything... but he never even once forgave me. Not even once... Whatever. I'm keeping the worst ones just cus it's what I do.
Anyway. I should totally shower. Plus I have to clean up before Julie gets here and whatnot. Not to mention, I think I've been sitting here for an hour doing nothing. So yeahhhh. I love Mar so fucking much. He's so good to me. And I love that. I wanna be able to make him as happy as he makes me. I want everything to be perfect. I want us to live happily ever after. But no worries, I'm not THAT naive. I know there are gonna be times where we argue. I know he's gonna find stuff about me that bothers him (he probably already has =P), and I'm probably gonna find stuff about him that bothers me. Nobody's perfect. There's no such thing as perfect. But he's damn close to it.
I fucking love this song.
Boten Anna - 35 times
Vi Siiter I Ventrilo Och Spelar Dota - 29 times
Hallaa Dar - 28 times |
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| loves~ |
[Sep. 27th, 2006|11:57 am] |
my favorite noises:
- the sound of bubble wrap
- hearing a knife scrape against toast
- marbario talking to me
- the pop sound a top makes when you open a bottle
- the tapping of my keys on teh keyboard
- clinking glass
- windchimes
- hearing birds chirping in the morning
- the sound that gets made when people IM me.
apple calls it "ping"
Idk why. I've just been thinking about it a lot lately. Probably because I eat toast like every other day and I recently came across some bubble wrap and I LOVE the way the keys on my laptop sound. I'm very picky about keyboards cuz if they don't make the right sound I like hate it. Plus I broke a glass today and it made a pretty noise. I don't like it when you like drop it and it shatters but I guess you werent supposed to put hot water in that glass cuz when I was washing dishes I turned on the hot water and picked it up and it broke in my hand.
I love talking to Marbario. I love it when he talks. He doesn't talk very much sometimes though. Only if I talk... so mostly I talk...
I like jingling tinkly sounds. Like windchimes, like little tiny bells, idk. I'm weird ^.^ I'm weird for blogging about it so much. *giggles* I guess I'll just stop... maybe next time I'll write about my favorite smells? I was gonna do that today but the first thing I thought of made me sad so I didn't want to. And even though I tell Marbario I wanna be sad and emo, it's not COMPLETELY true. Oh wells... I'm strange.
Julie wants to go to Wendy's to eat salad so maybe I'll wake her up and go with her... Idk. I wish I could stay online and talk to Marbario. But Julie wants to eat, and I should go to class soon.
I wish I knew every word in the english language. Cuz then maybe I'd know what the word is for how I'm feeling right now. |
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| we come crashing down everytime we go this far again~ |
[Sep. 23rd, 2006|03:44 am] |
We come crashing down
Everytime we go this far again
We come tumbling down
Everytime we go this far again
Everytime we go
Sugarcult anyone? Don't know why but it's what's in my head. But yeah... on a completely unrelated note. I am a FUCKIN idiot. Not just an idiot but a FUCKIN idiot. It's just like, wow Jen. Could you be any more of an idiot? Just... fuck.
Thank God for Zatch. Yeah he's an ass and etc, etc. But he's a good friend to me. Unfortunately, he's sleeping. And technically I should be sleeping too since it's fuckin 3:45 in the morning. But my brain was like hey! Maybe you should wake up at 3 in the fuckin morning!
Whatever. I don't care.
Marbario's never waking up.
I'm just like sklfjsdlkfjsldkjfslkdjflsdk. And I am SO tempted to call either Marbario or Chaddums to wake them up. I'd feel less bad waking up Chaddums but I'd rather talk to Marbario. So it's like, what to do, what to do. Maybe sit here and do nothing :P
I'm so good at being sad and pathetic. Like seriously, I was SO good at being emo. *sigh* Whatever. I like how Zatch does his best to keep me not retarded. Unfortunately I like don't listen to him 98% of the time. Heh. We were like talking about something and I was like worried that I'm retarded just like Ryan but Zatch said if I was like Ryan he wouldn't talk to me. And that Ryan gets mad, I just get sad. And somehow that's better? Heh. Zatch luuurves me. It's nice that he's such a good friend. I hope it isn't cuz he actually luuurves me. I thought he stopped but the other day he like got upset when I mentioned it as a joke.. yeah... I don't know.
Whatever. Maybe I'll sleep. Maybe Mar will wake up. Who knows. Maybe I'll stop being a retard. Wouldn't that be nice. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2006|10:41 am] |
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| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | nothing. | ] |
:( |
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| omg i cant believe its already five in the morning |
[Sep. 21st, 2006|04:56 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | idk. something dumb. | ] |
im totally eating ramen while marbario is showering instead of working on my chem lab like i should be doing >.< yeah... i kinda suck at life. haha.
fuck im such a fatass.
LOLZ :P
i hate sleeping problems. i tried to go to sleep. and i like couldnt. ugh. i hated it. and like, i wanted to take a three hour nap cuz i was tired and jooli woke me after an hour... just like, wow.
stuff with ryan is completely done... im curious as to what him and marbario talked about. but like, idk. its not really my business. and i think its best if with just dont talk about ryan anymore. but yeah...
ack... i should work now... so then maybe i can take a nap. cuz i just realized, i always fall asleep in my greek lit class, and thats no good. maybe i'll take a nap when i come home at 11... |
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| wow... just wow |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|04:51 am] |
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| |  pissed off | ] |
i'm a fuckin idiot.
zatch is right... as always.
i shouldnt talk to ryan.
he makes me hate my life.
and when you hate your life,
it's hard to care about anything...
fuckin asshole.
i think i got everyone in trouble.
oh. and now ryan's decided that the past two years doesnt mean anything to him anymore. god.. im just pissed off. i kept trying to tell him that zatch actually cares about him. and of course we got into the same fight we had 50,000 times where i tell him that zatch is a decent person and ryan refuses to listen. then proceeds to yell at me for everything he can possibly think of. fuckin... i he'd just give zatch a chance. and now i ruined everything right after zatch just got done telling me stuff with ryan has been a bit better than usual.
fuckers.
whatever.
watchin diggnation in 4 minutes.
i just dont care anymore. |
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| just because it's impossible now - doesn't mean it always will be |
[Sep. 11th, 2006|10:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | damien rice.the blower's daughter | ] |
"You can't love anyone until you understand that you can't love everyone."
Oh how very true that is.
I'm not really sure what to expect from everything. It just doesn't fair to Ryan at all... yet at the same time I want to be selfish. I want to be with Mar. although, wanting doesn't mean anything because he's never actually admitted to ever actually wanting to be with me. It's just my silly imagination and my pointless hopes and dreams. *grins*
Gosh, Damien Rice makes me feel oh so very sad and emo. I do believe he even outdepresses Elliott Smith. I'm very awkward in the way I write. I jump from subject to subject, each line is something completely new or something that was discussed in the lines earlier, yet never immediately following. I don't even think that last sentence made sense. My brain's slowly dying from lack of Marbar *giggles*
Oh how very silly you are Jen. So young, so naive, so clueless to the world around you. Move in day tomorrow. Then goodbye to the internet. \
So very awake and bored because of my nap. Perhaps I'll read a book. Although I just finished one earlier today. Besides, I'm sure I have some sort of homework that needs to be completed.
Whatever. I'm out. |
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[Sep. 10th, 2006|12:20 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | korean dramas <3 | ] |
Got to talk to Marbario for a little bit today. He has tons of homework this weekend so I guess I won't be hearing from him too much. Sadness. I miss him. I luff Marbario. He's wonderful.
I talked to Rufus a LOT. We don't talk all that often but when we do, I LOVE it. I wanted to post part of our convo but the entire convo was wonderful so I didn't know what part to post. So I guess I'm not posting anything *grins* We kept talking about way back when, how yanime used to be. *giggles* Gosh I was young... he was young. Actually, he was like my age *giggls* It's hard to believe I was about 13 or 14 when I first started talking to him. Maybe even younger. Oh how everything changes.
Anyway, something doesn't feel right... I don't know what it is. But something doesnt seem right to me. I hope it doesnt suck.
I'm hungry. |
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| ~just a moment of weakness |
[Sep. 9th, 2006|03:06 pm] |
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| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jawbreaker.forgot the name of the song | ] |
Ick... I found myself wondering if me and Ryan could ever be friends... and as much as I'd love that, I don't think it'd work. I admit, yes, I do miss him. But Mar gives me that funny feeling that I don't get from Ryan anymore. Mar makes me laugh and act all silly.
I love Mar.
Cecilia's yelling at me to keep packing.
Bah.
Zatch decided to go away again. I'm sure I could've gotten him to stay but I guess I got so sick of it that I was kind of cold... partially cuz he's being an ass and also cuz I'm running around cleaning the house.
I'll talk about him later.
Omg. Fuck. He like changed his mind AGAIN. I think. Cuz he just claled. Idk. I was kind of a bitch. I didn't listen to everything he said cuz I was trying to pack/listening to loud loud music. So yeah. Whatever. We'll see.
Marbario has a ton of homework this weekend so I guess I won't get to talk to him much. Sadness. I miss him already.
He loved the card I made him ^.^
Anyhoo. I'm out. |
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[Sep. 8th, 2006|09:54 pm] |
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There are three things on my mind that's stopping me from truely appreciating my korean dramas...
First being... I met this girl. I had dinner with Elizabeth today and we were at Noodles and Company... and the cashier. I don't know... But something about her got my attention like the second I walked in. And then she started joking around with me when she took my order and Eliz was all like, do you know her? But like... idk. I like wanted to ask for her number... not really sure why. I just REALLY wanted to be her friend for some reason. Strange, isn't it?
Second of all... I miss the fuck out of Mar... well... idk. I've been thinking about a lot of stuff... mostly because of zatch which is the third thing... but I'll talk about him later. It's just Zatch keeps asking questions as to why I like Mar... what Mar has done to deserve me affection... why don't I love him... and it does make me worry a bit. Because I guess I always thought everything would work out.. and part of me keeps thinking Marbar may someday love me... and zatch was like, there's no chance of Marbar liking you so what are you holding onto? Idk... I just love Marbario so much.. everything Mar does and says makes me happy. It's hard to let go of that. And idk... he wants me to stay. He WANTS me to stay. That means something, doesnt it? It has to...
And all I can do is feel guilty as fuck about Zatch.. everyday it seems like theres something new to discuss, some new way to make me feel like garbage. He even told me he stopped caring about death.. And it's all my fault. Idk how much longer I can deal with this. God. I don't wanna have to give up my own happiness to please Zatch... but it's what he wants me to do. He says it isnt... but its such a lie... Hes asked me to so many times..
It all just sucks.
But I'm still excited about that girl... she had the prettiest eyes ever. |
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| i'm in love with the world.. |
[Sep. 7th, 2006|04:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | elliott smith.say yes | ] |
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I WANT FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. And Marbar.
*grins*
I drew a comic thingy for him. But when I showed it to Julie she was just like... idk. If you saw her face, you would know why I'm not showing it to anyone ever again *giggles* Way to go Julie, making me feel bad. IT'S JULIE'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!
Chaddums likes FOUR girls. Gosh that's a lot. I feel like I havent been paying very much attention to him. I'm horrible.
All I do is think about Marbar. Marbar. Marbar. Marbar. It's like, OMG! STOP IT JENNIFER! But it doesnt stop. It's like eep! I'm horribly obsessed with him >.< *grins* But I luff him to death.
I just ate food. And it was delicious. THANKS MOM! *grins*
There was something serious I wanted to talk about... but I'm dumb and I like can't remember it...
Oh. Right... Ryan. I sent him a message on 1up. He's not gonna read it for a very long time. But it provided some closure. I told him that I really did love him, and cared about him like nuts... but that I'm completely done. That no matter how much I had wished it could've lasted forever, it was silly to continuously hold on for so long
I'm like an ass. And the wrong people seem to like me. Marbar's the one I want but it seems like everyone else but Marbar wants me. Blah.
I still think he's completely wonderful.
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| it felt like falling in love again.. |
[Sep. 6th, 2006|05:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | giggly | ] |
| [ | music |
| | arcade fire. w00t w00t | ] |
So the other day Zatch was talking to me about Rob Bob and how I don't seem to like him very much. And I think Marbar mentioned it briefly too. And I just realized why. It's cuz I don't trust him. I don't know him well enough to do so, therefore I'm not ready to open up to him and become best friends.
But yeah, Marbar's gonna be gone all day doing his homework. Sadface. I miss him already. I missed him LOTS at school today. Julie kept telling me to shut the face and stop talking about him >.< yeah... I'm kind of dumb.
It's actually her birthday tomorrow so I gotta bake a cake.
It's a piece of cake to bake a pretty cake ^.^
BLAAAAAAAARG. My head hurts. Now I'm cranky again cuz Marbar went missing. *sigh* poor ickle Jen. My sad emo self is getting the better of me. *giggles* He just makes life seem so wonderful.
I told him I'd be all sad and depressed while I was waiting for him to finish homework *grins*
I luff him. |
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